Archive for February, 2013

Coming Out Party

February 16, 2013

I used to write blogs almost daily. This was way before everyone and his dog had one. I loved the creative outlet and the occasional interaction with the few people who had actually read it. I just looked at my WordPress account and realized I have not posted a thing since March of last year. Lots has happened since then, most of it level to good. By that I mean there was nothing particularly good happening, but nothing particularly evil either. Just level….Level to me is OK for awhile, but it tends to get boring. Eventually, I end up at the same place. I get this overwhelming need to “Shuffle the deck” as I call it. I hate being stagnant. At my core, I try to be the best husband and father that I can be, but at the end of the day I simply need more than that. I need to be who I am outside of the assigned roles.

For those of you who have been following my Facebook posts, you may have noticed that I have been making increasingly broad hints at a project I’ve been researching. More specifically, you may have noticed that it involves my passion for cooking.

It’s time to bring it to light.

My hesitation to make this public is twofold; The first is the  fact is that three of my FB friends are co-workers in my current job. There is always a risk that the information that I am planning to change careers could fall into the wrong hands prematurely would obviously be a problem, coupled with the fact that I need financing for my plan and I have a long way to go to get to that point, but I am working on it almost daily.

The answer to the first concern is, the few people from work that I have chosen to add to my friends list are people I have grown to trust, and if you really know me, you know that I do not trust people lightly, and second, well…I’m working on it.

I am planning to start a food truck and hoping to launch by the summer of 2013,  The concept is  based on  Italian cuisine, I am calling it Anything’s Pastable.

Why am I telling you this now? Good question. Main reason is I need to strengthen my resolve and making this public is a good way to do that. That way, I will have you asking me about my progress and I will be compelled to have solid answers. I want this. I want this probably more than I have even wanted anything in my life.  I see this idea as the confluence of all my particular skills. The sum review of my life has always come back to cooking as the common denominator. It is what I was meant to do, and I have to now before I get too old to do it.

I have taken several forward steps to achieving this dream, but I am finding myself kind of stalled. I have taken the required course to get my official Food Handler certificate required by the state,   I have calculated all my costs versus potential income in my target market and on paper, I have a winner! Of course things always look better on paper. Now I need to approach people who can actually back this and make my dream a reality. At the risk of repeating myself, I want this. I have had a long, hard life full of frustrations and disappointments. This is now my focus and my goal, besides my family, nothing else matters. If I fall on my ass so be it, but I have to try. Wish me luck.