Spinning Wheel of Crap

How is it I can feel so damn good about myself on Friday and just so completely shitty on Monday? We can save the trite analysis such as “Well, that’s life”, or even “Guess you have a case of the Mondays”. I’m serious. On Friday I was sitting back just feeling totally satisfied with myself. Got the job I wanted where things are going very well.  Met some people (Ok a person in particular) that I was getting really excited about since that connection thing is as rare to me as teats on a bull and very cherished. Had some money problems I’ve been trying to settle and managed to settle at least one of them.  Actually starting to feel….Well, starting to feel again. Today, the job is still well, I’m respected and doing ok. Busy to be sure, but OK. The connection has been lost as fast as it came (not in so many words, I just know…), I got hit with another supposed bill from 1994 of all things (Going to fight that one tooth and nail starting with contacting LifeLock.) and Oh, the day care lady who has been watching Abby since she was 6 weeks old is shutting down due to government harassment and crippling taxes that they can no longer afford to pay. Closing in 3 weeks in fact since they can’t afford pre-paying the taxes and insurance they would owe by staying in business on January 1st.

My fault I guess.

 I should have known after all these years that despite what people say is silly and melodramatic (even people I live with), almost the second I get the feeling of contentment and dare I say happiness, something or somethings are going to happen to make it all come crashing down. 

This is my curse and this is my life. Best I can do is accept it and keep on keeping on as best I can.


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